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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 8, 2011 21:54:46 GMT -5
The cool grass below her and the soft breeze coming off the black lake while the sun was shining. The weather was so perfect that Cassandra wondered why anyone was inside of the palace. If it was raining and cold then yes of course everyone would be in the Castle. But right now it was perfect. It was probably a combination of the weather and the company. Who knew... but as she laid there she just felt wonderful.
Would this feeling continue with her? Eventually she would have to deal with the Slytherins and how she wanted to be like the perfect Slytherin girl. How would Kenny react to that? Probably not well since Slytherins were awful to others. Plus she would probably dress a little more on a risque side. Then she wondered if he would be the jelous type. Maybe dating was just over rated and she needed to find flings not boyfriends.
As she was laying there she felt Kenny moving closer to her and kiss her. She kissed him back and smiled. The kiss was always magic and she wondered if kissing boys always felt like this. Obviously she did not have enough experience to know but she wanted that experience. It was again more support for her argument of having flings and not boyfriends until she was married. Then a thought came to her head. Was her sister married? Her sister always told her that she would be married right after college so right now she probably was not. But it was just scary to think that she was going to miss that moment in her sisters life.
She quickly broke the kiss and then sat up. She was panicing at that moment about the future and missing her sisters marriage and her own marriage. Why was she freaking out over this. She quickly grabbed herkettle and the tea cups before putting them in her backpack. "listen... um... I have to go. I forgot about a paper that I have to finish." She said. He could see that she was paniced like the night in the Astronomy tower.
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 8, 2011 22:11:54 GMT -5
Outside the weather was about as almost perfect as it can be with the sun out and the breeze gentle and cool it was the best day to be outside and have fun even though it was a Sunday and the next day was back to going to classes again. He never really mind what the weather was to be as he liked the snow around the holidays and he enjoy the sun as well. He wasn’t much into rain since it meant that he would have to be cooped up in the castle which can be a bit of a downer if something was planned and it was cancel due to nasty rainstorms.
He wonder if he would remain having these true feelings for Cassandra as he really had a feeling that they should eventually fall in love even though he promised to wait a while before he can really say those magic words to her. He seemed to be doing quite well so far as he kissed Cassandra who was returning the kissing back to him as he can tell that she was enjoying the magic of there kissing. Kenny never really thought of himself as a great kisser as he always felt a bit nervous about it and loved it when she kissed him first as a surprise but he figured that by taking control first it would prove that he can do good in romance as well.
Suddenly in a shock Cassandra broke the kiss and got up as Kenny felt surprised and worried as if he did something wrong. He noticed her getting the teacups and kettle as if she was about to leave. But why did she want to leave? Did Kenny offend? Kenny was about to ask but Cassandra told him that she had a paper to finish as it left him more scared. He felt that he might have scared her as he can felt a tear rolling down on his cheek. “I’m…Sorry if I did something wrong” he said as he watched her get ready to leave.
Word count-346
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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 9, 2011 16:37:18 GMT -5
As soon as she looked back at him and saw a tear rolling down his cheek she realized that she had messed up a bit and up set him. "Listen... you did nothing wrong now dont get upset." She said. She finished backing up and then looked back at him. "I just... I dont know how to explain it."
All she needed was a minute to just calm down and try to relax. So she forced herself to sit there and take a deep breath while clearing her head. It took a few breaths before she felt relaxed again. Now she had to explain it to Kenny. "I freaked myself out... I was thinking about my future and about my siblings that I havent seen since I was eleve." She explained as she looked at him. "And once in a while my body just goes into panic mode. I did not mean to upset you."
Now she felt guilty and like a bitch for doing that to him. But she could not control it and sometimes it just happened. Her heart would race and she would feel this need to run away. One time she lost control of her body and ran out of class and out to the court yard where she sat for at least an hour. It had been hard to explain to a professor about it. Now she could feel her body physically calming down and settling down in the grass. "just forget it ever happened."
How could he forget that... she did not know but she hoped that he would and just get over it. The last thing Cassandra wanted to deal with now was an emotional person. There was a reason why she tried so hard to hide all of her feelings. It just looked better because emotions made one look crazy and then may irrational decisions. Her grandmother always told her to look composed and its what she tried to do all of the time. Apparently it was the only good way to find a husband. She laid back on the grass and waited to see how Kenny was going to react to her and her sudden emotional out burst. Hopefully he just pretended it didnt happen and they moved on with their afternoon.
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 9, 2011 19:27:15 GMT -5
Kenny felt that something was really strange going on as he saw Cassandra beginning to leave. He probably thought that he must have done something wrong by kissing her first for a change as he felt like he messed up the date. But just as she saw him and the tear roll down his face something made her stop as she felt like Kenny needed to know something right away as she had finished packing up the cups and kettle but stopped to go to him as it felt like Kenny needed to know what happened as she told him not to be upset as if she was apologizing to him for her actions.
It seemed that Cassandra had a reason for the sudden panic behavior that she had pulled on Kenny while they were kissing as she took a breath and begin to speak to him. Kenny was surprised to learn about her siblings which was really something that he wouldn’t know at all being that he was an only child and that he only had cousins in his family. She told him that she hadn’t seen her siblings since she was eleven and that sometimes she goes into a panic when she thinks about her future. Kenny never realized that she had so much worries about her future even after the other night when they talked about what they want to do after graduating from Hogwarts and stuff as he felt that maybe she really needed to be cheered up as he spoke up. “I never realized that at all. Well I really hope you are ok now” he asked hoping that she was feeling quite better after telling him that stuff.
Kenny didn’t really want her to feel so bad or worried about her future and maybe felt that he should let her know that she had nothing to worry about at all as he watched her sit back on the grass as he slowly moved close to her and had his arms around her as he sat next to her. “I’m sorry If I seem a bit upset.” he said as he hoped that maybe she can hug him back as he was doing the best he can to comfort her and make her happy again.
Word count-380
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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 9, 2011 20:55:16 GMT -5
She never understood why it happened or what set it off but once in a while she just went off the deep end. She knew that it was going to happen at some point in her life and it was going to be terrible. Sometimes she had nightmares that she screamed out her blood status in the great hall. Other times she had images of being at her sisters wedding and using magic to destroy the whole thing. It was kind of like she was forgotten about.
When he moved his arm around her she moved closer and hugged him back. It was comforting to have someone to hold her. It was nice to have the feeling of a warm body protecting her and letting her relax. She wondered if the lack of sleep was getting to her. Sometimes when she went a few days without any sort of sleep she had a panic attack like right now. But that did not many any sense since she slept pretty well that night. Maybe it was time to go to the Hospital wing and get the sleeping medication so she would be on a normal scheduale.
But a normal sleeping time would result in a lack of fun and studying. Cassandra needed the extra study time to prefect her abilities and she needed to have fun with the others in her house so she could fit in. Why was she so desperate to fit in? it was merely to reach her goal of hiding her blood status. When people did not see her acting like a real Slytherin they questioned her blood status. Now they just assumed she was a good pureblood.
As they hugged Cassandra felt bad about breaking the kiss so she moved back closer to him and kissed him again. It was even nicer this time because their lips and bodies where pressed together.
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 10, 2011 0:59:49 GMT -5
It seemed that somehow Cassandra’s words had made Kenny felt better when she told him about how she would sometimes go into a strange panic mode as she puts it which he was not too sure why it was called that. He did understand what she would go through however as he sometimes have this panic mode sometimes when he is alone at dark and a loud thunderstorm is happening as it was like a nightmare coming true for him. He is afraid of loud thunder at dark because it made him think of his muggle father and how he was mean to his mother when he was still young as he never wanted to talk about it at all fearing that it would just make him quiet and lonesome.
As he placed his arm around Cassandra to comfort her from her sudden panic episode he noticed that it seemed to comfort her so much as he formed a small smile to her as if to let her know that he was ok and not upset with her at all. It really felt so good to be able to comfort someone like Cassandra actually as he never realized how much she was so troubled despite the fact that she was a slytherin. He did hope that maybe she can do something to stop her panics so that maybe she wouldn’t feel so trouble after all.
While he was comforting her by hugging her Kenny was suddenly met with a surprise kiss on the lips by Cassandra as it was all sudden. He took the kiss as he closed his eyes as it actually felt so good to be away from the troubles and just relax in the mood as they stood there hugging and kissing as he kissed back at her to make it more romantic and nice. As they continue to kiss Kenny did wonder if he would be able to see her more often as they still had to focus of school work at Hogwarts.
Word count-337
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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 10, 2011 18:57:09 GMT -5
It was awful that she went through those things. She could feel herself going through that depression type thing as the muggles called it. For a moment she thought about life had she stayed a muggle and not developed her magical ability. No need to keep crying about the past, Cassandra had done enough of that but the future seemed so dark and scary at this point. Maybe it was time to work on her divination and find out what sort of things the future held for her. That would probably calm her down a bit.
Having an arm around her was just so comfortable. It was like she was a small child and her father was protecting her althought Kenny was not her father. Secretly she missed her father and was hopeing that he would ask her to come home for the weekend. Going home and sleeping in her own bed would have been nice. Sleeping in general would have been nice. Next weekend she would probably go the Hospital wing and sleep there for at least one night. Those beds were nice too and one was well taken care of when they stayed there.
She closed her eyes and worked on focusing on the kiss. Focusing passion into the kiss and wrapped her arms around him in a hug. Cassandra waited to see where kenny wanted to take this and if he wanted to go far. Love was not on her mind anymore. Being close to someone was. She wanted to know the feeling of protection. Part of her was ready to run after this year and go far away. Finish school on her own and never deal with the pressures of fitting in or finding a good pureblood husband.She could die an old cat lady if it made her happy.
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 11, 2011 1:11:06 GMT -5
Kenny wanted to do so much to make Cassandra feel happy and better from what had just occurred with the sudden panic that she had just went through and it felt like he was just doing his best as he and Cassandra were just relaxing staying at there spot in the lawns as he was comforting her so much. He had a feeling that even by staying by her side that Cassandra was probably going to think of something to help battle her depression and panics as he felt that he might not know how to stop it. He just wanted to tell her that she might have a bright and wonderful future ahead of her and then again he wasn’t sure how the future will actually turn out at all.
As he had his arm around Cassandra, Kenny actually felt so much like how his mother would go and comfort him when he was a kid and when he was sad and lonely after the two moved to England. He still remember how he was teased by muggle kids for being different and when he return home to his mother he would be comforted by his mom who would smile at him to make him feel better and told him that he is no different than any other kid at all. When he was in his first and second years in Hogwarts he actually did miss his mother and wanted to come home as he felt scared but he knew that if he did his best he would make mother proud.
He can really felt the passion growing from Cassandra’s kissing on his lips as they went back to kissing when she felt bad from breaking it due to the panic attack that she had. Kenny can then feel Cassandra’s arms wrap slowly around him as if she wanted to stay by him. As the kissing was going on Kenny had a feeling that she wanted him to do something during this moment as he decided to kiss her back and hold his kiss more as if he was trying to start the kiss earlier while keeping his embrace around Cassandra as he wondered what she had in store next.
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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 14, 2011 15:29:51 GMT -5
Cassandra had nothing in store for him. Just keep kissing him and hugging him close to her body. There was something so nice in that embrace and she just never wanted to let go. She never wanted to leave that moment. For in that moment she felt safe and secure while secretly in love with this boy. Where to take it next? Obviously not too far since it was not allowed on school grounds. She would just focus her energy into the kiss.
Slowly she allowed her mind to wander again. So many memories locked away in her brain about her siblings. Her and her sister would play with dolls every day after school and giggle while her brother would try and steal the dolls. In the background of the memory was her mom who looked happy as she watched her three children running around. Then her father would enter after a long day at work and drop his dirty boots at the door since he was working construction or some muggle job of that nature. The house was full of laughter and happiness.
Now it felt like her world was running around her and happiness was slowly disappearing. Almost like dementors where surrounding her and she was trying to gety away. Oddly having someone in her life, like Kenny, was bringing some light to her dark world. Like a glowing candle in a dark room at night. Or the moon on a dark night... one of those nights where all of the stars are covered by clouds. But at this point she had no idea what to do with these feelings.
(I know... I am so sorry! My muse for this character like vanished. Again I am really sorry. I will try to be better!)
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 20, 2011 22:46:35 GMT -5
It felt that he always had the unique memories of how his everyday life would be like whenever he was taking the vacation break at Hogwarts and being at home with his mother. He had always wanted to keep the fond memories alive in his mind to help him get through the toughest times around hogwarts as it helped him out through the years when he was just basically shy and lonely and quiet half of the time. He felt by being with Cassandra seemed to be forming a new kind of happy memory in him by getting the chance of getting to know her and going out with her on these dates.
As they were kissing away along with the gentle romantic embracing Kenny wondered if Cassandra had something in store probably for the two. However as he opened his eyes a bit to see he can noticed that she had nothing in store at all for the two as he too did not had anything in store to surprise her as the two were continuing there lovely kissing. He did know that they should not take it so much far as it can be very disastrous on the school grounds. He only did stop the kiss to catch his breath as he looked on her as he gazed into her lovely eyes for a moment as he continue his warm embrace which had seemed to make her feel better from the sad panic attack that she went through.
He did had a good reason to stop the kiss as he finally got the chance to speak up to her as he wanted to ask her if she was interested in maybe another date for the next weekend. “Sorry for stopping but I wanted to ask you, that the next weekend if its ok do you have any good place that we can meet next if we were to have another date?” he asked her as he gently kept his embrace around her hoping that she had something nice in mind.
Word count-342
(oh its ok I was brainstorming what to do next honestly)
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Post by Cassandra Lynn Murphy on Jul 23, 2011 10:13:04 GMT -5
She had been enjoying the kiss and all that came with it. Once her father made one of those powerful love potions for a client. She wondered why the client wanted it but just sat there and watched her father brew it. Obviously she took notes in her potions book and enjoyed the experience. But once he left the room to speak to another client she moved closer to it and smelt the potion. The smell was unique to everyone she knew that from class and she was interested to see what hers was.
What she smelt was tea, a warm fire, and of course the smell of rain. At the time she could not identify the type of tea but she came to the conclusion that it was just a general tea. She drank tea for the taste and of course for the energy. Engery kept her awake and alert after the sleepless nights. She wondered how she would explain that to Kenny if they ever spent the night together. Would it be best to just lay there and pretend? Would he notice if she was just pretending?
He brought her out of her thoughts when he spoke and asked if she was interested in another date. "um... we can go back to Hogsmeade?" She suggested. Right now students werent really going there since it was getting colder out and tests were coming up. "or there are places we can go in the Castle if you are looking to stay here." She added. There was plenty they could do around the castle like going down to the kitchen and enjoying a meal there with the house elfs. They could also explore the grounds and maybe sneak into the forbidden forest for a bit. There were little places she knew about that were private and secret at night. They could even hide during the day and have private time. The library even had a few secret spots. "What did you have in mind?"
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Post by Kenny Micheal Templeson on Jul 31, 2011 1:03:41 GMT -5
It was just almost too perfect as they shared there kissing each time they would be together and it felt that it was moments like this that make both Kenny and Cassandra seemed pretty happy together. Although the two are not yet in love yet being that it was still too soon he did wish for the day when she can finally go and tell him that she really did love him. He did wonder though if maybe because of how he helped made her feel better after the panic attack that maybe she might probably reduce the wait as they promised to wait a few weeks which seemed so long to be honest.
He wonder though what Cassandra was probably thinking right now as he had a feeling that maybe she was thinking about how much he was somewhat of a nice gentleman to her since they first meet. To be honest when he did meet her the first time he was a bit shy and nervous because he was afraid she would think he was strange. However the past was now over and it was the present and he was happy that he was being able to spend time with Cassandra despite the fact that they were different houses and that’s all that matters.
When Kenny waited for Cassandra to answer he noticed she tried to think of something good for the next time they have there date for the coming weekend. Tests were coming out and it was becoming winter real soon so places like Hogsmeade were going to be a bit vacant and yet she also suggested the castle as he figured that maybe she knows so much of the secret spots that he would suggest something like that again. “Well if you like we can maybe do something quiet like hang out at the castle and find a secret spot there to hang out. Maybe we can also explore the forest if you like.” he added as he hoped that maybe he can be somewhat of a brave hero if they were in trouble in the forbidden forest. “Honestly it’s all up to you” he said as he really didn’t know much of exploring around Hogwarts being he used to stay alone in the common rooms before meeting Cassandra.
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(sorry it took a while trying to think of something nice to come up with)
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